Can i cry victory

To turn the machines off was the question the doctors wanted the answer to. Refusing to stop the battle, a tracheotomy and gastrointestinal tube was surgically placed and I started the daunting task of learning to care for my "new daughter" at home.

Each day during the thirty minute journey to the hospital, I would pray. No, actually I begged and pleaded with God to give me back my daughter with a sound mind. Without knowing what disabilities this war would leave her with, I promised to take care of her for the rest of her life or mine.

God said, "Ask and you shall receive. Mommy is here! With a mixture of emotions confusing my thoughts, I fell to my knees thanking God for blessing me with a miracle. Being voiceless from the tracheotomy, I started a series of yes no questions, and raise your right hand for yes, your left hand for no. I could not hold back my joy and relief as the hands were moving up and down correctly answering the questions.

The Rehabilitation Unit was the final stop before going home. During this last month, it was busy with therapies and preparing for the move home. Then the devastating news came that Mollie's eyes had deteriorated to blindness, caused by the burn which led to scarring on her corneas, and then an emergency appendectomy, was the evil reminder that this war was still on going. Two weeks before the move home, the tracheotomy was removed with a nasal cannula taking its place for oxygen support.

As the long awaited day arrived, wheelchair in place holding my daughter tight, the journey home began on Mollie's thirteenth birthday, October 05, A hospital bed, medical supplies, oxygen, and medical machines were at the house in place awaiting the arrival.

Realizing deep inside my entire body that this fight was far from over, and trying desperately to remove it from my mind, just for that day, I pressed on with excitement. The battles of this war rage on to this day. When the enemy feels it is being defeated, it rears its evil sword, and attacks for the ground lost with countless surgeries, illnesses, less severe drug-induced reactions, and four more deaths to date.

When and if, Mollie succumbs to defeat; the war will be forever raging in my soul, never forgetting, until I breathe my last breath. As a Christian leader, I gained a deeper insight of the type of emotional release that must have occurred when Jesus wept.

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